• Mathura Hawley

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For those of us who, in the past, isolated or blamed ourselves for the many traumas of life, or merely felt victimized or sad about them, I can tell you this with a clarity that is currently on fire with enlightenment: Life happens when you are alive."

I am not surprised that I just spent a week in the hospital with a broken heart. I’ve spent the last eighteen months focused on my heart, more time than I have ever spent on it before. Feeling it go from filled to shattered, then empty, then wounded, then brushed or touched, and finally to the reality of where all this took it, to the literal and metaphorical stretcher in the emergency room to be reset. Each moment of the last year has taught me, shaken me or thrown me in and out of whatever I am meant to be shown, and I have no doubt anymore that the answer to the question “Why me?” is very simply “Because you are ready.” It is the reason you cannot wish harm on the person who helped put you in a bad situation, because lessons only come to those who are conscious and able to go up the next stair. Most of the people going headfirst through this life wreaking havoc on themselves and others have no consciousness at all, or hide or deny it. I have learned many things this past year so that means I am ready to learn a little more. It is almost that simple, and I am accepting that. If you are awake for the car crash you just crawled out of, and see it as a light on your experience…watch out for what comes next. For those of us who, in the past, isolated or blamed ourselves for the many traumas of life, or merely felt victimized or sad about them, I can tell you this with a clarity that is currently on fire with enlightenment: Life happens when you are alive. And nothing makes you happier to be alive or to be exactly who you are and where you are supposed to be than accepting that it is all meant to take you higher and farther. Once you get there, you see it all for what it is, a constant stream of energy that carries you while you struggle, breathes air into your crushed lungs, and wraps its arms around you while you cry, a little less every time. Hare Krishna.


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